When I was little, I remember getting hearing tests, and on all occasions, my hearing turned out just fine. Why, my parent asked, why didn't I seem to hear like their other children?
I'll tick off some idiosyncracies of mine that jibe with this condition as listed on various web sites.
- When concentrating on something, I don't hear you even though my ears work fine.
- Background noise makes understanding words harder.
- I don't like loud. I actually used to be terrified of it. My God, I had an absolute fear of a car wash.
- I tend to not remember names.
- If you start talking to me, and I'm not expecting it, I'll miss the beginning of what you say.
- I don't recall long lists of directions well.
- I had/have many socializing difficulties, especially how to jump into conversations.
- I was slow to develop my speech. I went to speach therapy for my R sounds.
- I hate noise in music (distortion, ragged sounds, etc.)
- I'll mishear what you say in the most spectacular ways. (Did you just say "halo jug?")
- Extremely poor spelling.
- Forgetful, and I mostly don't try to organize.
- I tune out in conversations/meetings with alarming frequency.
- I tend to watch your mouth when you are speaking.
- Sometimes, crowds and sensory overload really throws me for a loop.
- I have a term for "sensory overload," when my brain stops processing my senses.
- Sometimes, my language processor stops working and English sounds like babel.
- My wife tells me that I just said something two minutes ago in an argument. I really don't remember what I said.
- Back in college, a few people remarked about my non-existant accent.
- I have trouble finding my place in the music while singing. I really do need to stop singing and hold the damned hymnal to find what I need to sing.
- I can't sing you some of my favorite songs because I never learned the words. I often don't hear the words in the song.
- I'm not good at matching notes to voice. My singing is always off (I presume).
- I often transpose number sequences.
- My handwriting was bad my whole time in school.
- Trouble making friends.
- Trouble with understanding body language.
- I sit in the front of a classroom by habit. (A learning strategy for this condition.)
- I learned that I must read before a lecture. (A learning strategy for this condition.)
- I don't study with music or distractions. (A learning strategy for this condition.)
- I still tend to speak tersely.
- My writing began tersely, but has developed over the years.
- I am not a phone person.
- I find myself saying "say that again" a great deal, or just filling in the gaps.
- Recess by myself.
- In high school, lunch, but not in the lunch room. Too loud.
- Solo jobs.
Normally I'd be pretty dubious, but considering the bewildering number of seemingly unconnected behaviors and experiences connected by this idea, this has definitely earned my attention.
Who knew this was a thing? (Well, obviously, some people know it's a thing.)
In some ways, I am fortunate that I grew up without this label. Ignorance means never getting stuck on an arbitrary definition. I did quite well in school until college, where my academia went to hell until I learned how to learn in college.
Well, I really can't say that was entirely true. I muddled through school really well, but it was still muddling. I smacked my head against math a great deal, trying to make sense of it. Math didn't always come easy. In senior year of high school, my math just went down the tubes. I never bothered analyzing why.
In reading over some CAPD blogs, I don't think that I was as bad off as some others. When I paid attention, I really did learn orally very well. I had a good memory despite not having a good memory. (I know that's contradictory.) I don't recall papers ruslting and pencil scratchings being an issue. So while some of my experiences jibe with the experiences of others, there are some that don't.